It is strange how I can see an event coming for a long time and anticipate the arrival with happy or at least content feelings, but when it actually arrives still feel so so lost and scared.
Howard left Novell today. It was the right choice to make. We both believe that is true. But the security net is gone and suddenly I realize exactly how far down “bottom” is. Staring down into that netless chasm I suddenly begin to doubt my ability to walk the fine line which keeps us up. Fear could become all consuming if I allow it to be so.
I chose not to. Fear must become background because I am making myself a new net from faith and my own knowledge and from counting the friends and family who will not let me fall without fighting to keep me up.
I have checked and rechecked. I can keep us going for the next three months with only the resources in hand. What happens after those three months depends on how much revenue we can coax out of Schlock Mercenary during those three months.
Life is going to be very different around here. Part of me is glad. Part of me is scared. But we can do this and it will be good for us.
You have a large cadre of people cheering you on. With any luck, this will help. ];-) But first and foremost, resolve to enjoy this!
Your natural inclinations will serve you well, I think.
Best wishes.
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*HUGS* At least you’re keeping your head straight!
I am interested in your proffered advice on How to be Successfully Self-Employed and also in your offer to buy books. I’d like to correspond via email, but don’t want to publish my address via livejournal. Would you please email Howard via the Schlock site? He’ll pass the address on to me.
Best of luck to you and Howard. It was a brave choice, and I hope it’s one that will lead to a lot of happiness.
Will do. You can also write to me, as well, using Level_Head@LiveJournal.com
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And for future reference (did I mention this already?) you can usually get an LJer your email address by replying to a comment of theirs with it, and then deleting your comment. Your comment gets emailed to them automatically by LJ, but doesn’t linger on the web or their entry.
Anyway — I’m looking forward to hearing about the next three months from you! I’m excited for you. 🙂