Sometimes I look at one of my kids and they are bigger than they were yesterday. Sometimes the “bigger” is physical and that cute favorite shirt is too small. Sometimes the child’s size doesn’t change at all, but the thoughts get bigger. New doors have opened in the child’s mind and suddenly whole new trains of thought are free for travelling. Sometimes this only means new vocabulary and interesting conversations. Sometimes it means that my four year old who has never once drawn on a wall suddenly creates mural sized portraiture. Frequently it means that I have to re-think all my parenting tactics for that particular child because they’ve suddenly grown into a different and slightly more complex person.
Patches got bigger inside his head last month. It happened about a week after I started babysitting NotMyBaby. These big changes are frequently triggered by an event, so it wasn’t really a surprise. Having NMB around made all of us, including Patches, realize that Patches simply isn’t a baby anymore. He isn’t even a toddler anymore. He’s suddenly morphed into a little preschooler. It shows in the conversations I have with him where he is stretching his vocabulary to try to express thoughts he doesn’t quite have words for yet. It shows in the way he throws tantrums when I do things for him that he wanted to do for himself. It shows in his new awareness of patterns and How Things Ought To Be. When I am changing his diaper I am no longer allowed to put his pants on while he is lying down, that’s not the Way Pants Go On, instead I have to let him stand and then coax him to put each foot in separately. Sometimes he even insists on pulling the pants up himself. His brain is now a three year old brain instead of a two year old brain even though his birthday isn’t until March. (Of course all of this starts indicating his readiness for potty training, but I’m not ready to deal with that yet so the potty training push will wait.)
These changes are now familiar ones. I remember when Kiki made the same shift around her third birthday. It was bewildering. I was always trying to figure out whether a certain behavior was just a stage that would be outgrown or something I needed to worry about. The first time around I really wanted a book that would explain common stages and the ages at which they occur. I never found one. Now after 4 kids I don’t need it anymore because I have first hand experience with all the patterns. Maybe sometime I’ll write up my observations in a different entry.
Okay, I lied. I still need the book. I’m pretty good at baby, toddler, preschooler, early gradeschooler, but I’m lost when it comes to pre-teen and I’m sure that teen will be just as bewildering. I think Kiki has turned or is turning a developmental corner too. The happy evidence of this is some of the wittyness I’ve seen from her lately. She’s gotten smart-alecky, but fortunately it is in a nice way that teases rather than defies. The unhappy evidence is the way she has been manipulating my emotions and pushing my buttons lately. There have been lots of tumultous conflicts in the past two months, mostly over homework. It helps to realize that all the conflict is in part caused by the fact that she’s gotten smarter. Many many times homework time was sidetracked for hours by diversionary subjects such as “I’m stupid” or “I’m worthless” because she knew that those statements change me from Homework Matron to Healing Mommy. I doubt this type of manipulation was conscious, but then I also doubt that it was completely subconscious. We’re gradually wrangling ourselves into a new relationship where I don’t allow her to manipulate me and she stops trying because it has stopped working. Not an easy process, but at least now I can see it as a process instead of worrying that I had a permanently emotionally unstable daughter who would be dependent on me for stability forever.
All this thinking about developmental corners has me once again realizing how important this journal is to me. Many times I’ve read back and found records of delightful events that I had completely forgotten. In here I manage to capture snippets of who my kids are today. That’s important because next week they might be different people. Again.
*chuckles*
How you manage to stay sane…
My roomie’s eldest (they now have three, with ages from 5 or 4 years down to a couple of months) has her moments…
My favorite was when her Daddy was carrying her to her room (over his shoulder, as she was Fitting and none of us were going to wait for her to calm down to go) and she suddenly stops her Fussing, and says “Little help here…” in that young girl voice that forced her mother and I to hide our faces to keep her from seeing us LAUGH…
This journal also allows you to keep a record of your kids for when they have kids of their own (many, many, MANY years down the road), so you can point to it and say “See?”
I love these types of posts – they’re always interesting. It’s an insight into a totally different world and ‘what if’. And they’re a fun read. Sometimes I don’t have anything constructive to add or comment on (not having kids is a big chunk of that LOL) – but it’s interesting.
> Sometimes it means that my four year old who has never once drawn
> on a wall suddenly creates mural sized portraiture.
Sometimes it means the rest of us hear a snippet like this, about something that sounds like it was a REALLY COOL STORY!
*HUGS*
My problem comes from the two radically different people I am trying to raise. Liz started wanting to do things for herself from the begining… Emily still wants to be babied. Etc. I would love to have a book like you are describing but I don’t know if one can be written since children are so individual.
Re: *chuckles*
LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!
After all, she can’t see me… 😀
You’re right. All of my kids are really different too. But even so there are some thematic similarities at certain ages. A list of three year old themes would have been useful when Kiki was three.
Some useful, I grant! If I can help with pre-teen and teen, let me know. Although how well I’m doing remains to be seen!
Do you think deliberately pushing limits, manipulating adults, and trying to get away with things would be a thematic element for a pre-teen girl? Most of this seems aimed at me rather than at Howard, probably because I’m more nurturing. Her life feels chaotic to her and so she depends on me more at exactly the same time that she is struggling for more independence.
I’ve probably answered my own question here, but input from someone who has been there would still be appreciated.
Definitely. Remember, she would have been considered an adult a couple of hundred years ago and she’s trying to be an adult in some ways if not in others. Most of it is aimed at you because you are not only more nurturing but because she’s a girl and you are becoming a combination of safety and competition at the same time. Obviously, this is not a deliberate thing…
There can also be interesting consequences if the kid gets hold of the book. I used to read the parenting/child-psychology sections in… some kids’ magazine that I think a relative had given us a subscription to. They were in smaller, denser print, and I guess nobody expected the little kids to read them….
I must have been reading something about expecting kids to push or test boundaries, because I remember surprising my mother considerably by going up to her and asking, in all seriousness, what boiled down to whether she thought I disobeyed enough.
That sound so very like something my older daughter would do!