I don’t like dreaming about my children being dead, but sometimes I do. I don’t dream of traumatic deaths, mostly I dream that a certain child is just gone. They are dreams about grief and about the huge hole the absense of that particular child would leave in my life. Last night I dreamed such a dream about Gleek. I dreamed that she never got to take her dance classes. Fortunately I awoke from the dream to discover that Gleek had snuck into bed with me. I was able to snuggle her for awhile before putting her back in her own bed so I could sleep the rest of the night.
This morning when Gleek woke up I took a few extra minutes to snuggle her on the couch. Gleek is only really snuggly when she’s sleepy, I need to savor the times when she is, because she’ll soon be too big to bundle up in my lap. When that happens I will grieve a little for the 5 year old Gleek that is no more, but only a little, because I’ll have a whole new Gleek to love. The thought of not having my 5 year old Gleek and the future being empty of other iterations of Gleek, makes me want to cry. And snuggle her lots more.
I don’t like these dreams, but I think it is good I have them sometimes. The dreams make me take a look at what I have and appreciate it lots more.
You’ve mentioned lately that you’ve been feeling like your kids aren’t getting enough Mom Time. Could be that your dream is a manifestation of that.
Either way, it’s always good to have a reminder to look closely at the kiddos, for they change so very fast…
You’ve mentioned lately that you’ve been feeling like your kids aren’t getting enough Mom Time. Could be that your dream is a manifestation of that.
Either way, it’s always good to have a reminder to look closely at the kiddos, for they change so very fast…
Sandra,
I don’t know if you remember the gent you went off to lunch with in a small group in Montana a while back, but that’s me. Speaking as someone who was impressed by both yours and Howard’s attention to your kids, even with large doses of “Ovalkwik” and admiring fen in the suite – your concerns do you credit.
That being said, and also having recently lost a well-loved, elderly relative, enjoy what you’ve got. Even as things change, they don’t always change for the worse, nor for the better. Instead, they just /change/. Encourage & enjoy the good, try to help improve the worst, and enjoy.
Not that I think you don’t already know that – as I said, I was impressed by both yourself and Howard. But hopefully my murky verbiage may help you remember it when you need it next.
-John
Sandra,
I don’t know if you remember the gent you went off to lunch with in a small group in Montana a while back, but that’s me. Speaking as someone who was impressed by both yours and Howard’s attention to your kids, even with large doses of “Ovalkwik” and admiring fen in the suite – your concerns do you credit.
That being said, and also having recently lost a well-loved, elderly relative, enjoy what you’ve got. Even as things change, they don’t always change for the worse, nor for the better. Instead, they just /change/. Encourage & enjoy the good, try to help improve the worst, and enjoy.
Not that I think you don’t already know that – as I said, I was impressed by both yourself and Howard. But hopefully my murky verbiage may help you remember it when you need it next.
-John
Of course I remember you. That was a fun lunch except for the parking ticket.
Thanks for your kind words.
Of course I remember you. That was a fun lunch except for the parking ticket.
Thanks for your kind words.