a day for the kids
Yesterday I was beyond stressed. But at the end of the day it was all done. All the lists were printed. All the mailers were stamped. Menus were planned. Purchase lists were written. Until the books actually arrived there were no further business things I could do.
Today I put all of that out of my head. Today belonged to my children. When they needed something, I was there to provide it. I squished playdough. I took them to the library. I registered them for swim lessons. I pushed them on the swings. I can’t say I was always calm, but I tried. I tried not to spend time staring out the front window hoping for a delivery truck. My kids needed me today. I needed today. Because as soon as the books arrive I’ll be shuffling them off so I can work. At some un-noticed point in the past 6 months I changed from a stay-at-home mom to a work-from-home mom.
So much of my focus has been on making this book project work. When the books are mailed, the release party is over, and the convention is over I really need to reprioritize. Gleek and Patches are showing myriad small signs of insecurity. Gleek keeps asking for “mommy time” and she wants it right now. Unfortunately I can’t do that, I can’t promise it for another two weeks which is endless ages away for her. Both Gleek and Patches are having troubles settling down to sleep despite the fact that they spend every day cranky from exhaustion. Summertime is going to require an enforced naptime for them. Maybe in two weeks I’ll have the brainspace to pull that off.
I hope the books arrive first thing tomorrow. I want to get this all over with so life can be normal again.