Today did not go as I intended. I planned to work hard all morning. Then in the afternoon and evening I was going to hang out with Janci. There was going to be laughter and lots of talking. I didn’t get as much done in the morning as I planned. The time with Janci started really well. We talked over her latest novel and events in her lives and mine. She wandered through my house with me and listened to me babble about all my plans for painting and replacing baseboards. Then we left the house in quest of some fabric for a birthday project for Kiki. We went to three different fabric stores. None of them had what we were looking for. By the end of that I was flagging. My head had begun to ache and all I really wanted was to curl into a ball somewhere and have some down time. Janci said she was tired too, so I dropped her at her apartment. I went in with her for awhile and that was a good thing because we realized that she already has some fabric that will work for the planned project. Also she gave me her old outdated laptop computer. It can’t connect to the internet and it has only a floppy drive. I doesn’t even have a working battery, it has to be plugged in. It does have a working USB port though. This means about all that it is good for is word processing. This means I can type things while sitting upstairs in the sunshine and then use a memory stick to transfer them to my real computer in the basement. There have been many many times that I wanted to work on a story or revision, but I didn’t want to sit in the basement to do it. Someday I’ll have a real laptop, but until then this may make things a little easier.
After leaving Janci’s I bought dinner for the kids and crashed into bed with a book. I finally crawled back out again about 20 minutes ago. I didn’t get everything done today. The house is far from clean. I’m headachy and tired and grouchy. I think I’ve got a sinus infection. When I look sanely at how much stuff I’ve accomplished in the last three days I’ve done plenty. But I’m still mad at myself for not getting more done today. And if I wasn’t going to get stuff done, couldn’t I have enjoyed having a break?