The big picture and patterns
Today is a big picture day. Today I am contemplating the vast sweep of the rest of this year and wondering what we were thinking when we scheduled so much stuff. And yet it all feels important. I was going to list it all out, but then I realized that having it laid out might stress Howard and me more. All the stuff is on the calendar. I can deal with it when I get there. For now I just need to keep doing what I have been doing since January 1st, which is take things one week at a time.
If you were to graph the busy-ness of my weeks, there would be a huge bulge each Monday that tapers off toward the end of the week. This happens because I try to get as much done as fast as I can. I’m trying to get ahead. I hope that I’ll actually be able to do some of next week’s stuff this week, thus removing some of the stress from next week. I want to get stuff done, because stuff that is done no longer clutters up my calendar or my to do list. Instead what usually happens is that I wear out by Thursday afternoon. Then Friday frequently ends up as an avoidance day where I don’t do the things on the list. Weekends have a different rhythm because the kids don’t have school. Then I’m back to Monday, determined to get things done.
This week I have merchandise shipping, Teraport Wars layout, and two birthdays to plan.