Scattered Saturday

Today was an odd day. I spent all of it feeling like I was wasting time, and yet every time I tried to be productive I was unable to focus. Sometimes I decided that the lack of focus meant that I’m sick, but then I didn’t feel sick enough, so I thought maybe I was just being lazy, but then I’d try to do something and not be able to focus, so I’d decide I must be sick. wash. rinse. repeat.

At least the kids had a good day. The weather was beautiful, so they played outside a lot. This necessitated baths later, but the kids like baths, so it just added to the fun of the day. Just before noon I stopped and counted the number of children in my house and yard. There were fourteen kids from five different families and they were all playing happily together. I love my neighborhood. Some other day one of those other families will end up hosting most of the neighborhood kids for an afternoon. Mostly the kids were outside, so it didn’t feel like too many.

The house didn’t get cleaned, not thoroughly. I meant to clean house. Hopefully I”ll be able to kick myself into gear next week and get the house clean. It is sorely overdue for some scrubbing. Having a clean house makes me feel so much better about everything. I’d like to feel better because we went for another round of “this is never going to work, oh wait I think I’ve fixed it” with the Hold on to Your Horses project. Can I be done with that ride now? All the endless circling is starting to make me feel sick. But each circle does bring us closer to done and I think the next pass will be the point of no return after which we can’t change anything. After that comes the nailbiting wait until we get the advance copies from the printer.

Fortunately I will have many things to keep me busy during that wait. My sister and her kids are coming to visit and then I’ll be taking her up to see the relatives in Idaho. I’ll finally get to see my older sister’s baby (who is probably crawling by now.) I won’t get to see the newest niece. She’ll still be in neonatal intensive care. I wish I could see my sister in Germany too. I’ve been longing to hang out with family lately. We’re also embarking on the final six weeks of school. I’ll have piles of events to attend that I don’t know about yet. And before all of that, I’ve got to get all the layout done on the next Schlock book. We want to put that project to bed asap.

Deep breath. I had a vacationish week while my kids were on Spring break. I think I’m ready to pick up and get back to normal on Monday.