I am not the energizer bunny. I can not just keep going and going and going without rest. Those two sentences need to be my new mantra that I chant to myself.
Yesterday I talked about being a jellyfish, but I was not actually jellyfishing. Oh, I had a few jellyfish moments, but the rest of the time I was either doing things or making sure they got done. I kept telling myself that relaxing would be so much more pleasant if I just got this one thing taken care of first. But there was always One More Thing, all day long. Then around bedtime, I looked at the schedule for the next week and realized that it was full of One More Things. The time to relax and jellyfish was like a retreating mirage at which I could never arrive.
That was when I broke. The energizer bunny’s motor just overheated and burned out. Pink was never my favorite color anyway. Howard picked up some pieces. The kids picked up some more. We all muddled through and went to bed.
Sometime in the middle of the night I realized, “Oh. I’m sick.” Sure enough, I’ve been attacked by a rhinovirus. It says something about how tired I am that I’m glad to be sick. Now I have a solid excuse to call people and ditch some responsibilities for a day. Howard and I got a substitute for our primary class. We kept Gleek home because she is also sniffly. The other three kids were sent off to church together. Now I’m headed to bed to sleep and convalesce. Looks like I get my jellyfish time after all.
There are things to do tomorrow, but like a proper jellyfish I can’t bring myself to care about them right now. This is so much better than yesterday when I was just as tired, but I couldn’t stop caring or planning ahead.
This is one of those times to be glad to live in Utah and live close enough to your church building to send children to church by themselves. 🙂
Oh, and I honestly hope that you feel better. You’ve been working nonstop for quite a while now, and I saw the results of a lot of that work on Friday. Now is the time to rest. You’ve earned it. 🙂
The montra I had to use with my ex husband was I am not a pop tart. I had to remind him that I can’t just jump out of bed on a seconds notice without falling to the floor from dizziness. He never accepted that, and he expected me to be the energizer bunny too. none of us can do that.
I hope you get feeling better
Ona
I can sympathize with you. I came down with a cold on Saturday. I’ve never had one come on so fast. I was fine on Friday and by Saturday morning I had a nasty cough and runny nose. ‘Tis the season.
I hope we all feel better soon.