Sandra Tayler

Squee!

“Squee!” is the sound that Skull the troll from the webcomic PVP makes when he is delighted with something. (Edit: I am informed that Skull actually says “Glee!” and that “Squee!” is a noise that Howard brought home from a convention. This error in no way affects the correctness of the rest of this post.)

Howard and I have adopted the term. It is primarily used for the times when we have contact with someone we admire. It is the fanboy/girl sound of delight upon meeting the object of admiration. For example Howard had a squee moment when he first met Steve Jackson of Steve Jackson Games. Another squee moment was when we realized that Baen author John Ringo was a regular reader of Schlock Mercenary.

Today a package full of squee arrived in the mail. Okay, it didn’t actually contain squee. What it contained was books, but the books made me go squee! Baen author Ryk Spoor is also a fan of Schlock Mercenary. Not only is he a fan, but in his forthcoming book Boundary, Ryk directly references “The Tayler Corporation” as makers of “carbonan.” He sent us an autographed copy of this book. He also sent us an anthology which contains a short story by him. Two free books. Yay!

But I have to confess, the part that made me happiest was the fact that he didn’t just send them to Howard, my name was on the package, letter, and inscription as well. This makes me extra happy because his prior book Digital Knight is one of the few books that has inspired me to write the author to say how much I enjoyed it. It makes sense for people to send free books to Howard who will read and review them, but it was pure niceness that caused him to put my name there.

Squee!

Publication thoughts

It is much more efficient for me to gather all my thoughts on publication into a new journal entry rather than to scatter them through the comments of my previous entry.

A vanity publisher takes lots of money, provides little or no editing help, sometimes promises promotion without actually providing it, and hands piles and piles of inventory to someone who then has to unload it.

The traditional self published route is to contract with a printer. The printer provides no editing or design help. The author merely pays to have books printed and then has to store and sell the inventory. The larger the run of books the smaller the price per book, thus self publishers often end up with thousands of books gathering dust. The author has to do her own marketing and distribution.

On demand publishing is new. The technology to support it has only been around for about 5 years. With an on demand publisher like Lulu.com the author uploads files and then can order as many or as few books as desired for the same price per book. Price per book is usually higher than you can get with traditional self publishing, but you only pay for what you sell. Also people can order directly from the on demand publisher, so the author doesn’t have to do mailing. However, the author does have to do the promotion and advertising to try to create demand for the book.

Traditional publishing is much harder to break into. The author has to convince someone else of the value of her work. Once accepted, the work will get edited. Art will be provided for the cover which may or may not fit the book. Then the book will be mass produced and sent to stores. Unfortunately that is only the beginning. The publisher may or may not provide publicity for the book. Having books on the shelf at Barnes & Noble is no guarantee that people will buy the book. Having a previously published book that performed poorly can be an impediment to having future books published. With a traditional publisher the potential rewards are high, but the author can do very little to affect the outcome.

There is a place for all three forms of publication. (but not for vanity press which is just slimey sharks trying to suck the blood out of someone else’s dream.) Most people say that traditional publishing is “the best bet” because it doesn’t require the author to learn marketing or advertising. No matter which road you choose to walk, getting published is lots of work and all roads have pitfalls and frustrations.

As far as publishing my work goes, I’m not in any hurry. Right now it is far more important to me for Schlock Mercenary to suceed than it is for me to have a writing career. At the moment my writing is a hobby that fits into the space around the larger things in my life. Because of that I won’t be submitting to very many contests or for publication very much. Mostly I just want to get the stories sufficiently critiqued that I can be fairly confident that I’m not deluding myself about their strength/quality. They feel strong to me, but all mothers think their babies are beautiful.

When I do choose to publish I will probably choose on demand publishing through Lulu.com to start. My situation is somewhat unique because I already have a big advertising venue. The minute a book by me exists, Howard will mention it on his front page and 20,000 other people will also know it exists. Only a tiny fraction of that number will look at it, even fewer will buy it, but it’s still a jump start. Before I get around to publishing, that 20,000 number may be even larger. We’re certainly aggresively working to grow that number. As part of marketing Schlock Mercenary Howard attends conventions regularly. My book could piggy-back there too.

Using this method I can only expect to sell small numbers of copies. If I decide I’m not happy with that, I can then pitch a book with a small track record to publishing companies. Large publishers are starting to be more open to picking up previously self published material. Eragon by Christopher Paolini is a perfect example, he hawked his book at conventions for a couple of years before a large publisher snapped it up.

Anyway, those are my current thoughts on publishing. All thoughts are subject to change, without notice, upon acquisition of further information.

Another Headfull of thoughts

Today my sister wrote about how she spent all day paying full attention to her kids. I read it and realized that I haven’t really paid my kids much attention for about a week. My head has been full of projects. I thought this situation would be somewhat remedied once I got through my week hosting preschool and LTUE. Unfortunately my mind has just moved on to other enticing projects.

Also I have this wierd sore throat and stiff neck thing. It isn’t a classic head cold, neither is it classic strep. Maybe it is classic laryngitis because it hurts to talk. This makes managing the kids less than fun. Advil has become my new friend.

And it is cold. I am tired of cold. In past years the weather has been cold, but mostly 40 degree cold with a few dips down into sub freezing. This year we’ve had a month’s worth of sub freezing days and pretty much all the nights are below freezing. No danger of my apricot tree blooming too early this year. cold cold cold cold. grr.

I’m also contemplating entering some of my completed stories into writing contests. I already have a long term plan involving on demand publication. I’m pretty sure that my stories are worth it. But then the voice of doubt tells me that I’ve never shown the stories to anyone who doesn’t have a vested interest in being nice to me. This means that the stories may not be as good as I’ve been thinking they are. So I’m going to put a few to the test. Now if only the Conduit people would get thier act together and post the writing contest rules that would really help.

Next monday I get to register Gleek for kindergarten next fall. Of all my kids, she is the one I’ve been most anticipatory about sending off to kindergarten. This is because unless she has a friend she hovers near me. Gleek is also the child I am going to miss the most when she is gone every day, for exactly the same reason. She’s growing up fast. She’s already doing beginning reading.

More thoughts keep bumping into each other in my head, but I can’t seem to catch any of them long enough to stick them into this entry. Must be time for bed.

LTUE panel: Making money as an artist

I’m not going to try to replicate the ebb and flow of the conversation in this panel. I’m just going to lift the major points and expound upon them.

If you want to make money as an artist, you also need to be a business person. All of the professional artists on the panel agreed with that. There is nothing wrong with art as a creative outlet or as an avocation. More people should have an art of some kind as a hobby. But you will never be a financially sucessful artist until you learn to manage money. Most of the panel discussed ways for artists to get contracts, or find other ways to bring money in. Just as important as getting paid for your art, is managing the money after it arrives. These days starving artists usally give up their art and go get a day job.

Art requires diligence and discipline. You need to love it and thrive off of the creation of art, but don’t expect to love every minute of creation. All of the professional artists admited that there are times when they just don’t want to draw, but they draw anyway because it is their job. Usually once they got working they enjoyed it again. (I’ve seen Howard do exactly that time and again.) There is lots of hard work involved as well as inspiration. Put in the time to become really excellent at what you do. Writers write, dreamers dream, Artists draw. If you want to be an artist draw every day whether you feel like it or not. You have about 10,000 really bad pictures that need to come out before you get to the good ones. Don’t jump the gun and start looking for paying work before you’re done with those bad pictures.

Taking classes and trying to meet the exact specifications of your “picky” teacher is very much like trying to meet the specifications of your “picky” client. Getting good at figuring out what someone else wants is an invaluable skill. The client always knows when something is wrong, but the client is never able to identify what it is. He just knows he doesn’t like it. Your job as an artist is to figure it out and fix it.

Be reliable. Always meet your deadlines. Art that is finished too late might as well not exist.

On submitting a portfolio for review: Never never never submit a drawing on notebook paper as part of a portfolio. If you can’t replicate that cool drawing on notebook paper onto good paper, then you’re not ready to be a professional artist. If you are not sure about the quality of a piece, leave it out. It is better to have a small portfolio full of excellent pieces than a large one with mediocre pieces. Tailor your portfolio to the reviewer. Do some research before you submit the portfolio.

Building an income as an artist is a slow growth business. Expect to work hard with little return for several years. You have to identify and research your market. Networking is the key to building an income. Every connection you make strengthens your net. Remember to give as much as you get or you won’t have a solid network. Beware, there are some sharks out there who will take advantage of you. These sharks will claim they are trying to help you while actually using you. Always check advice with several unconnected people before you apply it.

Well, that ended up being more a transcription of my notes than a true exposition, but at least most of the thoughts are there. I should note that pretty much everything said up there about art and artist could be applied to writing and writer. In fact it could all be applied to any creative business.

LTUE: The Howard & Sandra Panel

I always come home from a convention with so many thoughts that I have to write several entries to cover it all. This year’s LTUE was no different even though I was only there for half a day.

The most important realization I had because of LTUE was how lucky Howard and I are to have each other. I talked to several people whose spouses don’t share their interests in Science Fiction, Fantasy, or gaming. With a few small exceptions Howard and I enjoy the same things. We make a great team. I loved working the convention with him. I want to be able to do that more often and for longer periods of time. Being on two panels with him was a delight I want to do that again too. Everyone always says marriage is hard. There are definitely hard bits. Most of the hard stuff is building a firm foundation and a good relationship structure. Once that is done marriage makes so many things easier and more fun. Maintinence work on the structure is sometimes necessary or even a restructuring as life shifts, that is to be expected. Couples who expect to have to do maintenance and plan for it, are free to pursue so many other things. I love being married to Howard and sharing life together.

The Howard and Sandra panel went really well. We didn’t do much planning for what to say beyond planning to introduce ourselves at the beginning. It’s a little hard for me to remember all that we did say, because the stories are all familiar to me and not much stands out. I know that we talked about the shift from working at Novell for $100,000 per year to cartooning. We did it at a time when cartooning had made $-600 the prior year. We had enough money in the bank to pay bills for three months and at first we were considering it a 3 month hiatus before Howard had to go back to a corporate job. But then a couple of large comission jobs came in from former Novell contacts. We lived that way for a year, never having more than 3 months of bill money, but as we’d get close to the edge something would happen to help us keep going.

That discussion led naturally to talking about Schlock Mercenary Book 1 because it is our next big thing. We have finally got all the ducks lined up and we’re ready to start shooting. Howard will be announcing stuff about that soon.

We encouraged questions from the audience and one person asked how we managed kids. We answered honestly that I do most of the active child management. Howard tends to just provide air support. But if there is a problem I can’t handle Howard is right there with me. That is one of the key reasons that I can be so supportive of Howard’s creative work, because I know that if I really needed him to, he would give it up. He has proved time and again that if I need him, he’ll drop everything he is doing and help me. I try not to ask unless it is really important. Howard’s office is here at home, but I know that “at home” is not the same as “available.” I respect his work time.

One of the reasons that our partnership works out so well is that every morning we stand in the kitchen together, usually while Howard is preparing his breakfast. Howard lists his priorities for the day. I list mine. If he has assignments for me he mentions them. If I have assignments for him I mention them. Then we both have a clear idea about how the day needs to go. Sometime in the evening we do the same thing to review the day. These aren’t official meetings, they just happen as a natural part of the way we work together. We are constantly communicating about priorities for today, the week, the month, the year, and onward. This communication prevents us from working at cross purposes.

Hmm. What I’ve written here sounds really dry. Honest, the live presentation was much better. Howard and I laughed, the audience laughed. Hopefully someone walked away with something useful, but I’ll probably never know about that. If any of you online audience members have any questions or want elaborations out of my dry synopsis, feel free to ask in the comments. Discussions are much more interesting than lectures.

Educational thoughts

Today I watched a CNN segment on “unschooling”, which is an educational method where the child chooses what to learn and when to learn it. (This schooling method does not appeal to me. I’m too organizational.) The segment set my brain whirling with thoughts and opinions about various educational methods. I decided to write an analysis of all the methods I know of and what I think of them. I even started writing it. Then I realized that my motivation for writing it was to reassure myself that laziness on my part isn’t the reason my kids attend public school.

I’ve considered homeschooling. I know I’m cabapble of being really good at it. To be honest, the thought of all the work invovled exhausts me. I would be constantly creating curriculum, researching topics, and planning activities. All of that while also managing the household and the business. I don’t want to do all of that. I don’t want to spend hours figuring out how to teach division when there are professional teachers available who already know how. Professional teachers already have the experience that I would have to painstakingly acquire. Why duplicate all that effort?

Public school teaches social lessons that cannot be learned at home. Sitting quietly, taking turns, and dealing with difficult people are all life skills. Some social lessons are painful, so painful in fact that some parents choose to home school in order to avoid them. I know that in public school my kids may encouter bullying, peer pressure, negligent teaching, or drugs. I feel that the best defense against these societal ills is not to shut my children up inside my safe house. The best defense is to inform my children about theset things before they encounter them.

Public school aslo gives my children the chance to meet people frome a variety of backgrounds, heritages, and socio economic strata. They get a chance to meet people with different values than we teach at home. This is good. Sheltering my children from these things is more likely to teach intolerance and fear than to provide safety. People need to have thier values and habits challenged so that they can re-evaluate them. I do not want my children following in my footsteps merely because no other footsteps are available to them.

The biggest indicator of educational success is parental involvement. If a child’s parents are actively involved it education, that child has already won no matter what educational method is used. If all the caring, active, involved parents pull their kids out of public school then the children whose parents can’t or won’t be involved do not stand a chance. I believe in the public school system. It has problems, all systems do, but most of those problems could be resolved if only more parents volunteered. I do volunteer in my kids’ schools. That fact reassures me that laziness isn’t why they’re there, because volunteering isn’t easy.

To summarize: My kids are in public school because I feel that social lessons are as important as academic ones and because by being there both they and I have a chance to help other kids who need it.

There, I feel better. Now my brain can stop whirling and find happy thoughts.

Edit: I feel better until I re-read it and after every paragraph my brain starts supplying contrary arguements for everything I just said. Sigh.

Auction

In the game Legend of Zelda: The Windwaker there is an auction in which the player can particpate. It allows the player to bid for goodies. Some computer controlled people bid against you. However, if the player’s bid is much higher than the preceeding bid, then the other people all go into a state of shock and are unable to bid for awhile. This is handy for winning auctions.

As of today, I know exactly how those computer characters feel. I peeked at our ebay auction of Schlock Mercenary business cards and realized it was over $100. I just sat and stared for a minute while little swirlys made my head spin. Maybe I’m making up the swirly part, but my head definitely felt spun for a moment. Last Monday I felt a little silly putting up business cards for auction. I was afraid they wouldn’t get bids at all. I mean, who buys someone else’s business cards, particularly out of date business cards? Apparently there are some collectors out there. This blows me away and makes me really glad at the same time. Thanks to those collectors we have $100 worth of additional time in which Howard can be a full time cartoonist.

Bugs Bunny

We own the Looney Tunes Golden Collection volume 1. (Great collection, I just wish it had more roadrunner.) Looney Tunes was a part of my childhood. It makes me really happy to share some of that with my kids. So, today when I walked in on Gleek, Link, & Patches watching Looney Tunes I was even more delighted that they each were munching on a large carrot. Apparently Bugs Bunny promotes healthy snacking habits. Yay Bugs!

Thinking out loud

This week is busy. Not an insanely busy one like I had last November, but still fairly packed. Fortunately NotMyBaby’s grandpa is in town for two weeks and so I haven’t had to watch him. That freed up time for me to manage preschool, the monthly potluck luncheon at the church, and prepare for LTUE.

I get to spend half a day at LTUE with Howard. That will be really nice. I wish I could manage more, but I don’t want to incur too much babysitting indebtedness. I’m particularly excited to be able to be on a panel with Howard. We’ve never done that before.

Once LTUE is over I need to plan for Howard’s birthday and Patches’ birthday. There really isn’t much planning to be done, but I haven’t even had enough brainspace to think about it and the birthdays are just two weeks from today.

February is disappearing fast. I’m glad. I’m really ready for longer daylight hours and warmer weather. The first crocus bloomed last week. It made me glad. Unfortunately today it is buried under snow. Sigh.

Crossing guard?

It amuses me greatly that instead of a crossing guard, an animal control policeman was ushering children across the street near Link’s school. Is it bad that I found it appropriate?